i'm just writing the words flowing in my head

everything is totally different
i can't write a swinging word to describe my mind inside
but now there's a feeling flowing in my desire
to stay and always be with you
there's a disturbance on my beat when you're next to me
rushing my concentration
but it seems that it is shining my darkest side
i write these words
just write
cause it's flowing in my mind
when i opened the buried page of our memories
i can find that you'd given me your sign
the sign which made me comfort
made me entertained and felt no sadness
but i couldn't catch it as a sign
more than we've related now
..
now
it comes to me
i even lost my power to stand
to speak the words
to think well
i think it's coming
a feeling that you felt so that you gave me a sign
but i'm lost with it
we're totally different now
you've got what you wanted
you have all you need
you can do what you've to do
you've given the best
while i'm still trying to catch my dream
i'm being busy by myself
too much concept built in my place where my heart should be
so, my attendance will be a mistake
in your perfect life
..
i'm not gonna ask you to remember those signs
and that feeling
i'm not gonna ask you to rewind back the time when you had it
when you felt it
cause it's late for me to ask you
even you'll be shining as a moon in the bright night sky
perhaps i would shine as a little star on the corner of that sky
although only the dawn will collide us
..
i'm sorry for my late in understanding those signs
i'd be glad to enjoy my buried page of our memories
this sorrow for being coward to utter my feeling
my hidden feeling
i'll try to carve my smile when you're happy
even we're far
and for the last time
i just ask you not to write me off from your memory
..
i need to be honest
it comes to me
when it leaves you
i have it
when you don't
i just need it
when you needn't
well actually i don't know whether you have that feeling or not
cause in reality you're near me
we talk
we're collided
..
for you
whose name means an affection
.
....
i've told you i'm just writing my flowing words in my mind